Repost: Exhausted

Exhausted

Sep 27, '07 12:30 PM for everyone

I'm feel tired and sleepy while I'm typing this sentence. This week and the week coming are my hell weeks and I'm not planning to sleep this night - not even a minute. There are really lots of things to do. I'm just taking a break that I've decided to write down this exhaustion eating the every piece of me.

I received an e-mail from my professor in cwts. The message really bothered me a lot since it was a warning for all of his students. This is what the email says:

The presentation of your CWTS output is scheduled this wednesday
October 3, 2007 at PH 400 (not PH 207).  LCD projector is provided, you can
just bring your laptops with you.  Each group is given a very short
10-minute period to present the data you have collected, explaining what
your group intends to do for the UP Community's Centennial Celebration
next year.  Be brief, make it short, but fun and entertaining.

I'll be checking attendance at 9:30, presentations starts at 9:45 am.  

Students who were absent September 26 AND October 3 will get a FAILING
grade.  

Students who are absent October 3 will get a grade of INC.  You have no
excuse, Wednesday 9-12 is our CWTS schedule.  

I'll be checking your blogs Monday midnight.  Students with incomplete
blog entries will get a grade of INC.

Inactive, non-participating group members should be reported to me
immediately.

Thank you.

Blood rushed over my head after I read the e-mail.

I wasn't able to come to class last Sept. 26 because my body gave due to lack of sleep. That class is from 9am-12pm, I woke up at 11am.

But I think my blog posts are complete, that is if he hasn't asked us to reflect on something new.

I'm cooperative, I think since the concept plates of our group where MY idea. It's just that I wasn't able to come to class last Sept. 26 (just reiterating) that I haven't had the chance to let my professor knew the hard work I gave on coming up with that concept plates. But I'm not worried; I think my group mates are honest enough not to take credit of other's work... and yet I'm not sure with this. I barely know them and only have the time to talk to them whenever we have to do something as a group.

I'll definitely go to class on Oct. 3, since its the only chance I have. But even if I didn't come across this email, I'll still come. I hate being absent; makes me neurotic of thinking too much of what I missed and the consequences of missing what I missed.

What if I get a grade of INC? Or worst failed?!

WHOA... failing CWTS, it's not even a GE, not even a major.

So right now, instead of making the papers I have for my majors and ge classes, I decided to put my time on creating the plates... just to be able to assure myself that I have done something, and I'm really doing what the subject requires. To stop myself from worrying of failing a cwts class.

I've already told mom the situation I'm in... and she got angry since it's only a cwts class that I'm about to fail. Sorry, can't stop of being pessimistic.

I hope I'll be able to survive this hell week and the coming weeks

I hope I'll see "PASSED" on my classcard in CWTS.

Wish me luck.

Currently listening to: Rolling Star - Yui
Currently reading: "Kule
Currently feeling: worried